Hi guys – so this is a little different from the blogs that I usually do but I’ve recently become very open with my mental health and speaking out about how I feel – so from now on at the end of every month I’m going to do a monthly update on my life and whats happening and going on. I journal twice a day usually, once in my bullet journal & once in my private journal but I think it’s quite therapeutic to type your feeling out – ya feel me?
So without further ado, let’s dive in shall we?
I’ll start with the good news!
My driving lessons are going well! I’m feeling confident that it’s going at a good pace. My boyfriend insured me on his car for a month to help me practice but it’s a completely different car than I’m used too so it’s taking a lot longer to get used to it than I would have liked but I’m hoping it’ll come eventually. I’ve also changed roles at work so I’m no longer a customer assistant on foods but in the bakery! Which is very exciting because I get to bake all day long which I don’t see myself getting bored of – also the smell is next level. I get to wear a hairnet which is usually a bit of a bummer but at least it means I don’t need to put a lot of effort into my hair.*bonus*
Which leads me on nicely to the fact that literally yesterday I chopped off my hair! I follow a very lovely fellow blogger Esther Wyse on Instagram & Twitter who has recently cut off her long locks and she looks stunning! Taking a little bit of inspiration from her & the fact that I couldn’t cope with how much effort it is anymore and took the plunge and I’ve not looked back since. It’s so nice having shorter hair.
My diet has completely gone out the window. I think not only the window but it’s caught a flight to Italy and is enjoying lots and lots of crabs and cheese. I’m very guilty of the ‘diet starts Monday’ but this time I mean it because I don’t want to personally be any other size than I am now as I’m rather content. Bye Bye copious amounts chocolate and chips. I’ll see you again soon.
My mum has been providing epic entertainment for me over the past couple of days, as she recently got stuck in her new sun lounger and it’s that low she couldn’t get out of it. Whilst getting out of it sandwiched her in and bare in mind, my house is in the middle of a valley she couldn’t call anyone for help & my dad wasn’t home for 2 hrs. I was creasing. It’s really not until you’re the mid to mid-twenties that you really appreciate your mum you know. She’s coming over in July for a week just after my birthday & I’m SO excited. I’m going to take her to York and show her around – v.v.v excited.
My mental health over the past couple of weeks has been very up and down! Due to my current living situation. I’m very restricted in where I go &when I go as my boyfriend and I care full time for his mother whilst working on split shifts etc. Sometimes it’s very hard to handle & we’ve been doing it for 2 years now and it’s just becoming too much. I’m a very strong person I’m very sensitive to other peoples feelings so tend to keep mine to myself. However recently I’ve been allowing my anxiety and other emotions to surface which is hard but in the long run I know acknowledge them will help me tremendously in the long run.
On a rather heartbreaking note, however, if you follow me on Instagram or Twitter you will have known that one of my best friends since high school passed away a couple of days ago. Her name was Jessica & she had a very strong a courageous two year battle with Hodgkin’s lymphoma, she was unlike anyone I had ever met and although we lived in different countries I knew she was always there for me if I needed her despite the distance. I’ve never met someone else like her and I doubt I ever will She passed away peacefully I am told – at the tender age of 24. I will miss her forever – it’s not every day you expect one of your best friends to suddenly not be their anymore. It was such short notice I was unable to fly back home to Northern Ireland for her funeral but I hope her family knows I would have been there in a heartbeat if I could have.
Sorry to end on such sad note guys – but there ya go! I’ll do another one at the end of July & keep you all up to date. As always you can keep up to date on my social media accounts linked below.
lots of love